Haa Ana Dza...

For all the times that expelled in vain,

for all the rest of strength that I have,

for all the faith that sometimes forgotten,

and for all the promises that I couldn't fulfilled yet,

Please forgive me...

For the feeling which I couldn't defeat yet,

for him, the one who always play around my mind,

for everything I've done for the other one,

Please forgive me...

Never thought in my mind that I will have an amazing experience like this : acting as a movie action actor..on a train??wew..

One day, eh..one night, about 7 p.m my father picked me up from my boarding school, because it was my odd semester holiday. He said to me that we had to go home at that night -not waiting until the other day's come as usual- because coincidentally, my father had an important job in the next day.

Unfortunately, there was no train which has a night journey and stopped at the nearest train station. Please understandable, that my boarding house is located in the small town, hoho. My father asked to the station keeper, and then he answered that if we were really want to take a train that night, there's still a possibility for us. But, we had to have a courage to do it. Hmmm..why should we do have a courage to take a train??

Apparantly, he explained that we had to "jump" to the train which has given a code by him so it will run slowly when it pass the station. Oh my God!! I couldn't imagine at that time.Finally, after thinking for a while, my father decided : we had to go home that night which is mean "we had to jump to the train in yhe middle of the night!!" oh nooo...

Are you perfect? "nobody's perfect", said an ancient wise word. Is that true?  Do we have no any chance to be perfect? I remember one of my favorite lecturer who devy this proverb. He's indeed one of the "nyentrik" lecturer in my faculty (how to say "nyentrik" in english? :p). I mean, he often has a different thought with the common people. He likes to say something oppose with the others, of course with a reason. He said that the proverb is wrong! because, Allah has already told us obviously in His holy Al-Qur'an that He has created a human being as the best creation. Let's take a look in Q.s At-Tin : 4 "Laqod khalaqnal insaana fii ahsaani taqwiim" which is mean "We have already created a human in the best creation". So, there's no exception for us to say "nobody's perfect".

And then, which one is the truth? admit our selves as an unperfect one and full of waekness or the opposite one indeed? Me, my self and I standing in the middle between both of them now (ckckckc..I think I've followed Al-Ghazali's way :p) by using one of method in Ikhtilaful Hadits - Al-Jam'u wat Taufiq -, I take a conclusion that physically yes, human is the best and perfect God's creation.What about they who was born with uncomplete part of body? As we know, human called as a perfect one is because